Easy reading is damn hard writing.
— Nathaniel Hawthorne
(thank you to WordPress for that quote this morning.)
I sit here, first day of March, and am pondering writing. Writing this book. This very book that I have been working on for ten years. And how I had thought I’d have this book done by the end of winter, this very winter. And now the crocuses are coming up outside. The robins are back here in Maryland and my sluggish winter blood that has been so conducive for cocooning in to write wants to go outside and play in the dirt. I want to party with the flowers that are poking their heads up out of the moist spring soil.
But I need to keep on writing. This book will be finished this year. Yes, it will.
Yesterday I met with my writing coach and he’s pulled the rug out from under my book outline and is encouraging me to embrace a far broader approach to this book. And I feel as if someone has yanked my baby out of me and is tossing it up in the air and not really watching where the baby might land.
And. I. Just. Need. To. Trust.
Or is this more than TRUST?
Is this an opportunity to take his ideas and start to work with them to also add my ideas, my muse, my inner voice’s direction? Time to run under that falling baby and claim her again but from a different perspective since I’ve had to budge from my former standing?
Ah, the murkiness of writing and the creative process. It’s been thick as pea soup here since my meeting with the writing coach yesterday and I’m determined to wade through this to the clarity.
I like this coach a lot. An awful lot. He’s very spiritual. Quite experienced with creating really good books. Books that are far more appealing than what I could come up with sitting alone in my wee writing closet.
So, I’m working on TRUSTING.
And now I need a big spoon to wade through the pea soup. Maybe a big long hot shower will wash the murkiness. Maybe a long, long walk to go out and talk with Mother will do it. That usually really helps.
Or better yet! Really start to play around with words and a draft outline following his vision, and see what resonates with me.
Or all of the above!
Ah… the writing process. God bless all writers. Sometimes this ain’t easy.